Lillie Elizabeth Hood: The best day of my life.

September 25, 2012

I was 38 weeks and it was time to introduce my baby girl to this big crazy world! I was so nervous and scared, ready to get her out of there, but nervous and scared. I was suppose to go to the hospital at 5 am but I was so scared my doctor told me to go at midnight so I would have some time to get comfortable and prepared...if you can prepare yourself for that. So Adam and I left my parents around 11:00, stopped at Mcdonalds so I could eat before I went in, and then headed on in to Holston Valley Hospital. They asked me a bunch of questions, gave me a gown.. all that. I don't know who my nurse was that night but man, I couldn't wait for the next rotation that's for sure. I'm ~~scared~~ terrified of needles, I was more nervous about the IV than anything, so I asked her if they had anything that she could put on it first to numb my skin (Indian Path does) because I was so scared.. She said "no, we don't.. and this one is a big one too." I thought, "well thank you..idiot." Anyways, she put my IV in before she left but they weren't going to start the pitocin until about 3 am.. how stupid was that, just stick an uncomfortable needle in me for a while for absolutely no reason. Thanks. Adam and I got a few hours of sleep before she came back in to start the pitocin, she put that saline in my veins and I almost threw up all over her, that's the most disgusting feeling I've ever felt. After that I got a few more hours of sleep and Dr. Beckner came in to break my water at 7am, WORST PAIN EVER. (my sister told me it didn't hurt..liar. Big, big, big, liar. Seriously, maybe it was just me but that was the worst part of the whole delivery. When he broke it, I didn't feel anything, no water, didn't feel like I had peed the bed, nothing. Dr. Beckner said nothing really came out but we figured that was normal since my fluid was low anyways. Shortly after that, I called for the epidural. I was scared of that part too, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Adam actually did worse than I did, the smell of the spray they spray on my back almost made him pass out. I was holding on to him while she was doing it then I was holding on to the nurse, I didn't even notice it, I was so focused on not moving, and not screaming. The sting hurt, it wasn't unbearable but it hurt, and I didn't like the clicking I could feel in my back, or the pressure. Yuck.

My face is so swollen.

The process from there was pretty slow, I didn't get to nap much due to people coming in and out. My mom was the second one to get there.. She got there around 7am. Everyone else probably came at like 2, minus my sisters, who were working. Nurses came in and checked me, changed medicine bags, all that.. if you've ever had a hospital stay, you know there's no sleep involved, maybe they're trying to prep me for the sleepless nights I'd be experiencing pretty soon. The nurse (who I LOVED) came back in to check me at 3:00 pm, and when she did.. my water broke, turns out Dr. B just nicked it, and it didn't fully break. Blah Blah. I was starving, did I mention they don't let you eat anything but ice? Adam was hungry too, his parents brought him back japanese but I asked him to leave to eat it because I couldn't take it, it would be like pure torture him sitting there eating that in front of me. While he was gone his brothers and sister in laws came in. Nick, Leslie, Jake, and Kelly. Nobody else was in there, they had all gone to the waiting room. I was laying on my side facing Leslie and the rest of them were, well, kinda at my butt. To be honest, I thought either my ribs were breaking or I was just filled up with gas, and I guess Leslie saw my expressions and they all left. I was in there alone and I later found out Leslie told my mom she thought she should come in there.. she can read my mind. :) So my mom, dad, and Nana came back in. I was in SO MUCH PAIN. Really, I thought my ribs were slowly breaking, that's no exaggeration.. I wanted Adam up there so bad. Mom was on one side of the bed and dad was on the other.. mom said, you're having a contraction, just breathe through it.. I could feel every bit of it. I started to cry.. I was squeezing the crap out of their hands and finally my dad said, "I can't stay in here and watch her like this." So I asked mom to get the nurse so she could put more medicine in my epidural or something. When she came in she said I'll just go ahead and check you.. so everyone left, just me and the nurse. It was around 3:15 pm. She said, "Honey, the reason why you're hurting so bad is because you're having a baby, I can see her head." HOLY COW!! That was quick. I had no time to be scared, no time to panic, nothing.. She said, "Where's Adam? You better call him, I'm going to call the doctor." I didn't have time to even think about calling Adam. So she called Dr. Beckner and told them to tell him he better get there QUICK! Luckily, Adam came walking in and my mom came in too...WHERE WERE MY SISTERS?? Work.. this happened earlier than expected. Jessica got off at 3:00, Alisha didn't get off until 5. When Adam came in she said.. "let me show you something," and showed Adam Lillie's head.. His eyes were as big as golf balls.

I didn't do any prep pushes before Dr. Beckner came in there, because I would have had her. Dad said Dr. Beckner came running down the hall.. I can only imagine, weird but I think he is so cute. Don't worry, Adam knows about it. haha. So he came in and like 30 seconds later my sister (Jess) comes busting in the door. I just said.."That's my sister!" She said they weren't going to let her in but she went anyways. I told the nurse I was going to throw up, she said that I wasn't, it was just how I felt.. I started puking all over the place.. Thank God for Adam holding my barf bag, mom wiping my face, and my sister there to take pictures. I pushed maybe 8 times, I honestly didn't think I had any more energy to push, and Dr. Beckner said her heart rate (Lillie's) was dropping and asked for that vacuum thing they use..game time. I pushed 2 times, with everything I had.. I wasn't about to put Lillie in any danger, and I didn't want them using that vacuum thing either. Dr. Beckner just said. "Nevermind!" Weird thing, the nurse asked if I wanted to get her.. I said "me?" She said "Yes! You can get her." That was weird, kinda, but it was cool too.

Welcome to the world, Lillie Elizabeth Hood. 3:47 pm. I told you it was quick.

We cried, both of us. All I wanted to hear was a cry, and when I did, it was the most beautiful sound I've ever heard. I was a mom, Adam was a dad, two people so in love created the most wonderful, beautiful, special, miracle. I had my own family now, I was fully responsible for another persons life. Whew.

One thing I knew for sure the moment Adam first laid eyes on Lillie, he was going to be the best dad ever. I had no doubt. Seeing them together, and seeing Adam look at her, and look at me when I had her, that was a miracle in itself. She's so blessed to have a dad like him, and I'm so blessed to have him stick by me and help me.