The best day of my life.

 

 

September 25, 2012

I was 38 weeks and it was time to introduce my baby girl to this big crazy world! I was so nervous and scared, ready to get her out of there, but nervous and scared. I was suppose to go to the hospital at 5 am but I was so scared my doctor told me to go at midnight so I would have some time to get comfortable and prepared...if you can prepare yourself for that. So Adam and I left my parents around 11:00, stopped at Mcdonalds so I could eat before I went in, and then headed on in to Holston Valley Hospital. They asked me a bunch of questions, gave me a gown.. all that. I don't know who my nurse was that night but man, I couldn't wait for the next rotation that's for sure. I'm scared terrified of needles, I was more nervous about the IV than anything, so I asked her if they had anything that she could put on it first to numb my skin (Indian Path does) because I was so scared.. She said "no, we don't.. and this one is a big one too." I thought, "well thank you..idiot." Anyways, she put my IV in before she left but they weren't going to start the pitocin until about 3 am.. how stupid was that, just stick an uncomfortable needle in me for a while for absolutely no reason. Thanks. Adam and I got a few hours of sleep before she came back in to start the pitocin, she put that saline in my veins and I almost threw up all over her, that's the most disgusting feeling I've ever felt. After that I got a few more hours of sleep and Dr. Beckner came in to break my water at 7am, WORST PAIN EVER. (my sister told me it didn't hurt..liar. Big, big, big, liar. Seriously, maybe it was just me but that was the worst part of the whole delivery. When he broke it, I didn't feel anything, no water, didn't feel like I had peed the bed, nothing. Dr. Beckner said nothing really came out but we figured that was normal since my fluid was low anyways. Shortly after that, I called for the epidural. I was scared of that part too, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Adam actually did worse than I did, the smell of the spray they spray on my back almost made him pass out. I was holding on to him while she was doing it then I was holding on to the nurse, I didn't even notice it, I was so focused on not moving, and not screaming. The sting hurt, it wasn't unbearable but it hurt, and I didn't like the clicking I could feel in my back, or the pressure. Yuck.

My face is so swollen.

 

The process from there was pretty slow, I didn't get to nap much due to people coming in and out. My mom was the second one to get there.. She got there around 7am. Everyone else probably came at like 2, minus my sisters, who were working. Nurses came in and checked me, changed medicine bags, all that.. if you've ever had a hospital stay, you know there's no sleep involved, maybe they're trying to prep me for the sleepless nights I'd be experiencing pretty soon. The nurse (who I LOVED) came back in to check me at 3:00 pm, and when she did.. my water broke, turns out Dr. B just nicked it, and it didn't fully break. Blah Blah. I was starving, did I mention they don't let you eat anything but ice? Adam was hungry too, his parents brought him back japanese but I asked him to leave to eat it because I couldn't take it, it would be like pure torture him sitting there eating that in front of me. While he was gone his brothers and sister in laws came in. Nick, Leslie, Jake, and Kelly. Nobody else was in there, they had all gone to the waiting room. I was laying on my side facing Leslie and the rest of them were, well, kinda at my butt. To be honest, I thought either my ribs were breaking or I was just filled up with gas, and I guess Leslie saw my expressions and they all left. I was in there alone and I later found out Leslie told my mom she thought she should come in there.. she can read my mind. :) So my mom, dad, and Nana came back in. I was in SO MUCH PAIN. Really, I thought my ribs were slowly breaking, that's no exaggeration.. I wanted Adam up there so bad. Mom was on one side of the bed and dad was on the other.. mom said, you're having a contraction, just breathe through it.. I could feel every bit of it. I started to cry.. I was squeezing the crap out of their hands and finally my dad said, "I can't stay in here and watch her like this." So I asked mom to get the nurse so she could put more medicine in my epidural or something. When she came in she said I'll just go ahead and check you.. so everyone left, just me and the nurse. It was around 3:15 pm. She said, "Honey, the reason why you're hurting so bad is because you're having a baby, I can see her head." HOLY COW!! That was quick. I had no time to be scared, no time to panic, nothing.. She said, "Where's Adam? You better call him, I'm going to call the doctor." I didn't have time to even think about calling Adam. So she called Dr. Beckner and told them to tell him he better get there QUICK! Luckily, Adam came walking in and my mom came in too...WHERE WERE MY SISTERS?? Work.. this happened earlier than expected. Jessica got off at 3:00, Alisha didn't get off until 5.  When Adam came in she said.. "let me show you something," and showed Adam Lillie's head.. His eyes were as big as golf balls. 

I didn't do any prep pushes before Dr. Beckner came in there, because I would have had her. Dad said Dr. Beckner came running down the hall.. I can only imagine, weird but I think he is so cute. Don't worry, Adam knows about it. haha. So he came in and like 30 seconds later my sister (Jess) comes busting in the door. I just said.."That's my sister!" She said they weren't going to let her in but she went anyways. I told the nurse I was going to throw up, she said that I wasn't, it was just how I felt.. I started puking all over the place.. Thank God for Adam holding my barf bag, mom wiping my face, and my sister there to take pictures. I pushed maybe 8 times, I honestly didn't think I had any more energy to push,  and Dr. Beckner said her heart rate (Lillie's) was dropping and asked for that vacuum thing they use..game time. I pushed 2 times, with everything I had.. I wasn't about to put Lillie in any danger, and I didn't want them using that vacuum thing either. Dr. Beckner just said. "Nevermind!"  Weird thing, the nurse asked if I wanted to get her.. I said "me?" She said "Yes! You can get her." That was weird, kinda, but it was cool too.

 

 Welcome to the world, Lillie Elizabeth Hood. 3:47 pm. I told you it was quick.

 

We cried, both of us. All I wanted to hear was a cry, and when I did, it was the most beautiful sound I've ever heard. I was a mom, Adam was a dad, two people so in love created the most wonderful, beautiful, special, miracle. I had my own family now, I was fully responsible for another persons life. Whew.

One thing I knew for sure the moment Adam first laid eyes on Lillie, he was going to be the best dad ever. I had no doubt. Seeing them together, and seeing Adam look at her, and look at me when I had her, that was a miracle in itself.  She's so blessed to have a dad like him, and I'm so blessed to have him stick by me and help me.

This is when he first laid eyes on Lillie.

 

<3

 

Lillie Elizabeth Hood

5 lbs. 7.3 oz.

3:47 pm

September 25, 2012

21 inches long

 

I'm still amazed.

 

Ready to go home!!

Pregnancy probs..

The start of my pregnancy was wonderful, no complications, no sickness, no aches and pains, no swelling, it was the perfect pregnancy. Until I was about 6 months pregnant, I felt great. Other than those awful kidney infections, never had one until I was pregnant. Then Adam and I went to the beach with my sister and brother in law and that done me in, I guess it was the traveling. The first day there- had to call my doctor, ask if they would call me in some medicine to the CVS in Myrtle Beach, the same medicine I had taken the couple times before during pregnancy when I had that infection. Adam and I went to CVS, I had to make random trips to the bathroom to throw up while I was waiting, I was crying... I literally thought I was dying. I couldn't get in the ocean or the pool. (not that I want to get in the ocean, I hate it) I mostly stayed in the hotel. I felt so bad for Adam because he stayed right there with me and tried to make me feel better, good thing he doesn't like the ocean either. I got better around day 3 of our miserable vacation and was alright the rest of the time. But when I got home, I got another one and had to go in to see my doctor. Turns out my cervix was shortening and Lillie basically quit growing. Boom..bed rest until 38 weeks. I could go to the bathroom, shower, and fix something to eat. That was it. Misery. But, whatever I had to do to keep my babes safe. I had to go have an ultrasound of my kidneys done, she didn't see anything, then I had to start going to the doctor twice a week. Tuesdays- Dr. Beckner, usually just  an ultrasound and a 5 minute appointment. Fridays- Dr. Lodeiro (the specialist) Ultrasound-Growth ultrasounds, fluid measurements, and 5 minute appointment. Boooo.. After all the crap they told me, turns out my baby girl was is perfect, just tiny.  Dr. Beckner said after the afterbirth.. (eww) that it was more than likely because my placenta was small it wasn't allowing any room for Lillie to grow, and my cord wasn't getting enough blood flow to her, so she wasn't getting all she needed. So he sent that off to wherever they send it to be checked. I asked him if my pregnancies would always be this way and thankfully he said no, every pregnancy is different.. maybe round 2 won't be so bad. All in all, whatever I went through, how scared I stayed, she was fine, she's perfect, and I'd do it all over again to have her.

More on the actual birth day later.. :)

 

Gender Ultrasound

It's a GIRL!!

(we were hoping for a boy, but I love my girly girl more than anything.)

Gender ultrasound again. Present were my hubs, mom, and two sisters.

At Hardees after a baseball game.  Around 4 months.

Adam's friends wedding in Gatlinburg.7 months.

First we had each other.

Then we had you.

Now we have everything.

Before the Gray fair. 8 months.

Beach trip.. feeling much better here.

I love him.

Sleepy boy on our first hospital stay.

The scariest day of my life..

So, I had this app on my phone called My Days, you can mark the start day and end day of your 'cycle' and it tells you what should be your start day the next month. Mine was always right, I always started on the day it said. Except this time, I was 6 days late. I thought it was just because I was stressed because of the new semester of college, I was wrong, really wrong.

 

 

January 26, 2011.

I couldn't be pregnant, no way.. I just couldn't, because that stuff doesn't happen to 19 year olds who aren't ready for it, right? I didn't feel pregnant, I didn't look pregnant, I wasn't sick...nada. So, I was talking to Ashley Hall, and she told me to come and take a pregnancy test.. so I did.  She told me to just hand it to her when I got done, and not to look at it. So here I was, peeing on a stick, put the lid on it, let that little sucker sit, I went to hand it to Ashley and accidentally looked... HOLY. CRAP. I almost hit the floor. Remember that line from Juno? "That little pink plus sign is so unholy?" On point, Juno.. good job.  Anyways, I said....oh no.. Ashley!!!! And she busted through the door, all she said was "Oh my gosh, Kristy.. oh gosh, it'll be okay." I didn't cry.. I just kept staring at it. I cried for like 5 minutes a little while later, cause what's the use in crying, it's not going to make me unpregnant. Anyways, to make a long story short, I emailed Adam, who was working at Rye Cove Middle School at the time and told him we were having dinner at Ashley and Anthony's that night so I'd see him later. I rode to their house with Ashley, after taking 3 more pregnancy tests.

I took 2 more when I got to their house, I thought Adam was going to be mad at me.. What a stupid thought, huh? How could he possibly be mad when .. well, it takes two to tango. He couldn't, but still that's what I thought. Adam and I had been joking about me being pregnant, we were stupid and didn't think it was going to happen so of course, as soon as he walks in he said.. "Hey babe!! What's wrong? You pregnant?" I just said, "Hey! No." I'm a dirty liar.  So we ate, tacos to be exact, and the whole time Anthony kept looking at me and laughing because I was giving Adam some awkward looks I guess, then I let him go upstairs with Anthony for a while to chill out before I dropped the bomb on him. Then finally Ashley said, okay.. go tell him. So that I did.. I went upstairs and Anthony came down, I said I had to pee.. went into the bathroom, put 3 of the 8 pregnancy tests I had already taken into the back of my pants and came back out. Adam gave me a kiss, I asked him how his day went, we goofed off then I said.. well, I have to tell you something. And he just looked at me, I don't know what was running through his mind since I had already told him I wasn't pregnant but.. I handed him the pregnancy tests and he just paused. He looked at me and said.. "those aren't yours!" and I said.."Yes they are Adam, I'm pregnant." He says. "No, those are Ashley's, those aren't yours.." So after trying to convince him, I told him I would take another one. This time it was a digital one, I said.. "Don't watch it, cause it's going to be like a slap in the face when it pops up pregnant" But he did, and surprisingly, he just grabbed me and kissed me, hugged me, kissed me again, told me it was going to be okay, kissed me again. I was shocked.. It hit him about 15 mins later, he was pale as a ghost.

poor thing looks half drunk..

So, we handled it.. Adam looked for a permanent job, I took care of myself, make doctors appointments, did what I had to do.

We had our first doctors appointment on Feb. 15, 2011, with Dr. Beckner at Holston Valley. By the way, Dr. Beckner is THE best doctor ever.. I highly recommend him. He just makes you feel so comfortable and calm. First ultrasound- done by Brandi, I heard the heartbeat and just looked at Adam like.. What are we going to do?  I'll NEVER forget what Dr. Beckner said. I was sitting on the table, he was asking how I was feeling, if I had any problems so far, and then he looked at me and said, "Are you okay?" and I said.."shew, yeah." And he said, "It'll get better, hopefully I'll see a smile in the later appointments."

Look how teeny.. .

 



I love Lillie more than life, more than anything in the world, but I was SO upset. I was scared, nervous, sad, depressed, whatever. I wasn't ready for a baby, this wasn't the way my life was suppose to go. I was suppose to go to college, get married, THEN have a baby.. but it didn't work that way, and that's okay, because it's working for us now. I have so much fun with Lillie, and had I known everything was going to be okay, that I would be as happy as I am now, I wouldn't have been a bit scared. I was mostly just scared of telling my dad...

One thing I need to make clear before I end this blog.. I HATE HATE HATE it when I see people or hear people say.. "They're engaged, she must be pregnant." I seen a facebook post that said that once (not about me, about someone else) and I couldn've gone crazy. A baby isn't a reason to get married... you don't get married unless you love each other, because if you don't love each other, you'll make your baby's life miserable right along with your own life. Yes, people make mistakes, some people mean to get pregnant first, and if that's how they want to do it... go.for.it. That wasn't mine and Adams case, we didn't mean to get pregnant before we got married, but we did.